Nostalgia

Tonight I feel a little lonely and heavy-hearted. I chatted with Ben online a little while ago, but it made me cry. It was a perfectly good conversation, I just miss him. I was looking at our pictures and it made me feel warm to reminisce, but it also made me feel so alone. I've never loved anyone as much as I love him. Less than a week until I see him.

Well, I need to get out of this funk...

Things are looking up

It has officially been over a week since my guy left for training. Most of last week was completely unbearable. After we fought about it towards the end of the week, it seems to have improved! Things are very much back to normal. It upset me that we weren't our usual selves. I miss him so much, but it's getting better. Only two weeks until I see him. I had fallen asleep after work for a little while because work was terrible today. While I was sleeping, I had such a nice dream about Ben. It was one of those lucid dreams.

Another awesome thing, I've lost 20 pounds since whenever I started dieting a few weeks ago. That made me VERY happy!!

11 days...