Still not looking up

It's really beginning to seem that my life just isn't ever going to recover from this mess. Ben and I had a huge fight today. We've been fighting a lot anyway, so I don't know what's going to happen. I went out to visit him on his lunch today and when we were eating I asked if he was going to spend the night at my house. He said he'd have to think about it and then I said that he could sleep in if he wanted to at his own house. I honestly wasn't upset that he may not want to spend the night, but he thought I was. So then I asked if he was happy and a lot of other relationship related questions. It all escalated from there, it was just horrible. He gave me such a severe look, I wasn't sure what to say. I really feel secluded and not myself since that issue in November happened. Ben said that I get angry over everything, which I know is mostly true. I can't help it, I try not to, but I feel like I'm losing my mind. He also said that I criticize everything he does and I'm always lecturing him. So I've become a nag at 25. I hate the person I've become. I have so much going through this damn head of mine I can't stand it. I really hope tonight improves :'(