However long the night, the dawn will break

It seems like it's been at least a week since I last saw Ben, but alas, it's only been two days. I wasn't kidding when I said this was going to be a very long three weeks. We already fought last night and I'm still left with a sour taste in my mouth from it. He's been indifferent to me these past few days. It really gets me wondering about things I shouldn't have to be thinking. What's meant to be will be I suppose.

Day one...

A few hours ago I took Ben to the airport. Here's to the longest three weeks of my life. He should be landing in Texas at 7:20pm our time. I hope he's having a decent flight. I started missing him as soon as he walked away at the airport. I don't like to cry, but I was fighting back tears the whole ride home and all afternoon. I'm trying not to think too much about it.

Yesterday we had our Thanksgiving because all of us were off and it was so nice. We also put up our Christmas tree on Friday and decorated it before we had dinner yesterday. I wanted to do it before Ben went away. I'm glad we had a nice day. I soaked up every minute with him... every kiss... every touch.

So, anyway, it's been a rough few weeks. We had a huge snow storm on October 29th which was really bad. Because all the leaves hadn't fallen off the trees, the weight of the heavy snow broke a lot of branches. So many trees fell around the area, it was like the world was ending. The worst of it all was that not only I, but Ben didn't have electricity for 9 days. It was just awful! We lost everything in our refrigerator and the tall freezer. Poor Ben was so depressed for his birthday. I felt bad that we ended up fighting that day.

Hopefully my next post will be sooner, and not as morose! Here's to the next 19 days :(

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