A new chapter

As of the last time I wrote, there were still 21 days until we moved. Tomorrow is moving day! Did time fly or what? I've got mixed emotions about moving. I'm so happy to be starting a new life with Ben in our own home. I'm also sad to be leaving my Mom. I've been here since I was 4 years old. I know she won't be far, but I'm still going to miss her terribly. At least I work close and can come see her after work. Let's hope moving goes well tomorrow and the next few days!

15ish hours...

Change is in the air

It's been a while since I last wrote and so much has changed! When I last wrote in December I was still in "deep despair" over Ben being away at training in Texas. Luckily it was only the first week that went slow and horribly. The rest of the time went pretty fast and we were so excited to see each other in the end.

There is some awesome news I have:  Ben and I are moving in together! We didn't expect for things to happen so fast, but it did. We were only just talking a few weeks ago about how we thought that the beginning of next year would be a good time for us to move in together. About a month ago we started looking around at some apartments and found a good one very close to both of us. So we applied and got it and that is that! We move in May 1st, which happens to be our anniversary. In 21 days Ben and I will be roommates! We are both so excited it's unreal.

With all of this change I've been having so much anxiety. There is so much to do, so much packing left, more saving money to be done, will it all get done? Poor Ben has had an extreme change to his household which has caused us to make the move sooner rather then later. That situation is very bad, lets just say there is a new member of the family who is quite a cunt. It's like living in a hell! I'm so glad I never moved in last year when Ben asked me. I can barely stand being around the other two members of the house for even two minutes! I'm so thankful I'm so close to my Mom. She'd never push me out of the house or if I ever needed to come back she'd let me. Our relationship is so much different and I'm So thankful to have it. I think my moving out will bring us even closer. I know I'll miss her so much!

Another thing, I've lost more weight! I've lost a little over 30 pounds. It was closer to 40, but after being sick I gained some back. I'm glad I'm a size 8-10 now. I have to get back on the wagon though!! I'm off tomorrow so maybe I'll go for a nice long walk.


21 days...

Nostalgia

Tonight I feel a little lonely and heavy-hearted. I chatted with Ben online a little while ago, but it made me cry. It was a perfectly good conversation, I just miss him. I was looking at our pictures and it made me feel warm to reminisce, but it also made me feel so alone. I've never loved anyone as much as I love him. Less than a week until I see him.

Well, I need to get out of this funk...

Things are looking up

It has officially been over a week since my guy left for training. Most of last week was completely unbearable. After we fought about it towards the end of the week, it seems to have improved! Things are very much back to normal. It upset me that we weren't our usual selves. I miss him so much, but it's getting better. Only two weeks until I see him. I had fallen asleep after work for a little while because work was terrible today. While I was sleeping, I had such a nice dream about Ben. It was one of those lucid dreams.

Another awesome thing, I've lost 20 pounds since whenever I started dieting a few weeks ago. That made me VERY happy!!

11 days...

However long the night, the dawn will break

It seems like it's been at least a week since I last saw Ben, but alas, it's only been two days. I wasn't kidding when I said this was going to be a very long three weeks. We already fought last night and I'm still left with a sour taste in my mouth from it. He's been indifferent to me these past few days. It really gets me wondering about things I shouldn't have to be thinking. What's meant to be will be I suppose.

Day one...

A few hours ago I took Ben to the airport. Here's to the longest three weeks of my life. He should be landing in Texas at 7:20pm our time. I hope he's having a decent flight. I started missing him as soon as he walked away at the airport. I don't like to cry, but I was fighting back tears the whole ride home and all afternoon. I'm trying not to think too much about it.

Yesterday we had our Thanksgiving because all of us were off and it was so nice. We also put up our Christmas tree on Friday and decorated it before we had dinner yesterday. I wanted to do it before Ben went away. I'm glad we had a nice day. I soaked up every minute with him... every kiss... every touch.

So, anyway, it's been a rough few weeks. We had a huge snow storm on October 29th which was really bad. Because all the leaves hadn't fallen off the trees, the weight of the heavy snow broke a lot of branches. So many trees fell around the area, it was like the world was ending. The worst of it all was that not only I, but Ben didn't have electricity for 9 days. It was just awful! We lost everything in our refrigerator and the tall freezer. Poor Ben was so depressed for his birthday. I felt bad that we ended up fighting that day.

Hopefully my next post will be sooner, and not as morose! Here's to the next 19 days :(

<3 <3 <3

It's a Blustery Day

This weekend was started off nicely with Ben and I going to a Thrice concert last night. They were pretty awesome. Two of the opening acts were good, the other one, not so much.

Today, Mom, Mike and I went to get apples for pies and applesauce. We also picked up some nice looking pumpkins too! After that we went out to breakfast at the diner. I had corned beef hash and eggs, I was very bad! I've got to start being better on my diet. I totally fell off the wagon. Well, that's not completely true, I'm usually good for breakfast and lunch at work. After all our errands were done we decided to take a drive around to see the fall foliage. It was really nice spending the day with my family! At the end we stopped to get pumpkin ice cream!! Too bad Ben had to work :(

Anyway, Ben has passed all three of his tests required to go to training. He was supposed to go on October 31, which is his birthday, but all the slots are full. Now it's official that he's leaving November 28 and he's going to be training in Austin Texas. He's pretty disappointed that his training isn't in Cupertino California where the Apple headquarters is located. I know it probably won't be allowed, but if I can, I'd like to go visit him on my weekend off while he's away. He's going to be gone for three weeks... eek! Either way, I'm glad it's only one time zone away!

Here's a few pictures from my last weekend off when Ben and I went to the Apple Harvest Festival out near Gettysburg Pennsylvania.